Teaching the Teacher

     I know that it is important for teachers to allow students to experiment with a topic we are teaching.  We can't just lecture all day and expect every child to get what we are trying to teach.  Students must be actively involved in their own education.  I know this, but when I experience it myself, the message becomes even more powerful.  Thursday night, I had the chance to experience the power of students (in this case, me) being actively involved in their learning.  When I read about all the different multimedia resources in the textbook, a lot of what I read just disappeared into thin air.  I couldn't comprehend what I was reading well enough to retain the knowledge.  But when I was given the opportunity to play with some sites in the computer lab, suddenly I understood what the author of the text was saying. The lesson Thursday was on ways to use technology to enhance my instruction, but I also learned first hand just how important it is to allow my students to take part in their own learning.  I think both lessons were equally important.

Am I Ready For This?

    I find it difficult to describe how I felt as I read the description of the classroom of the future in our text.  I can't say that I find it hard to believe such big changes could occur.  I've seen too many changes in my 19 years in the classroom to think that things will stay the same.  But I am intimidated by some of the changes that were talked about.  I try to stay on top of technology, but I find myself worried that I won't be able to understand or use correctly the next big thing in educational technology that enters my school.  Younger teachers seem to catch on to tech-y things much quicker than I do and I feel like I am listening to a foreign language when new teachers get together and start discussing ways they are using technology in their classrooms.  I do not want to become the teacher no one wants becasue she is boring and doesn't do the fun stuff like the younger teachers.  I want to understand and use the new things that are entering our schools, but I am still intimidated by the changes that I sense are coming. Digital literacy is necessary.  I know this.  I want my students to leave my classroom ready to face whatever the world throws at them.  But I doubt my ability to understand the technology well enough to do a good job of teaching it.  I hope that as the changes come to pass, I'll gradually learn the knowledge and skills necessary so I'll feel more confident when the time arises to use and teach these new technologies.  Right now though, I am scared.

Sometimes I'm Just So Proud

     My students and I recently had the opportunity to experience sharing in a student's health crisis.  One of my students was diagnosed with a brain tumor a couple of weeks ago and was immediately taken to UVA for a couple of operations to remove the tumor.  He left Friday like every other student and by the following week, my class was only hearing from him through second-hand accounts of his status.  My group of fifth graders, who can be extremely hard on each other and often don't get along very well, rallied together to support our sick classmate and send him warm wishes.  I was lucky enough to maintain a running dialogue with his family memebers and received daily updates which were then passed on to my classes.  The "M. Update" became a part of our daily schedule - after journal writing and before our read-aloud time. As we discussed our concerns and celebrated the good news we received from the hospital - no cancer!!!- the opportunity arose for some very serious discussions.  Students made cards, prayed during our daily moment of silence, and made plans for M.'s return.  When they heard that M. had enrolled in the hospital school, they were shocked.  (What?  No break from school even for brain surgery?!) M. came home last week, but he won't be returning to the classroom for a while.  He has a lot of therapy ahead of him and will be homebound.  I was thrilled when he asked his mom to bring him to school Thursday for a visit.  I was so proud of my brave boy as he was guided into my classroom (he still can't see in one eye, and the eye with vision droops and must be held open.) My ususally chatty students were completely silent.  You could see they did not know how to deal with the change from the boy who left our room to the kid standing before them.  M. acted as if nothing was wrong and even shared with the class that his doctor had been in the operating room when they did surgery on Christopher Reeves.  Yep - M. ranks up there with Superman!  It wasn't long before his friends began to open up and start talking.  The kids most likely to be ugly to others and tease anyone who is different were so kind and gentle.  I was impressed at the way they showed empathy.  They are already planning trips to M.'s house and asking me how we can keep him involved with our class.  I am so proud of all of my students during this stressful time for our classroom - M. for his courage as he faced a health crisis no one his age should have to face, and the rest of my fifth graders as they came together as a classroom community to support one of their own.